"Friends. How many of us have them? THe ones you can depend on."
Quoted from Whodini's Friends

I'm not talking 'bout the long list of strangers on your hi-5 or myspace page. I'm talkin' 'bout the ones that got your back when the ish goes down. The ones that are happy for you when good things happen for you. I've been struggling with this word for years lately. In school, I knew a lot of people. I always introduced folks as, "this is my friend,......"

What's wrong with that, huh? Jesus addressed people as "brother", "friend" or "neighbor".

Apparently whomever I was dating had a problem because I called everyone my friend. I never took it as literal as they did but now I find myself questioning myself lately. Was she right? She would complain, "You call them your friend but are they really looking out for you?" For the most part there was some truth in what she said. My family is not excluded.

Sometimes women's intuition is on point. (I said SOMETIMES!!)

Friendships to me is like a train ride. Some people get onboard. Some people leave cause its their stop. Sometimes its just your top. Friends lie, cheat, steal and create a whole lot of pain. we wouldn't address them as friend but they can be doing all this behind your back. some friends are honest, helpful and giving and bring great deal good. Those are the ones we should keep in our company. shameful thing is we keep those triflin @$$ people in our lives regardless.

Unfortunately things can never be the same forever. We all evolve. I have problems with understanding that sometimes. I don't want my friend to move or get married because it will change the dynamics of our friendship. My ignorance makes it a slow process for me to understand that it strengthens our friendship or even easier to find the snakes in the grass.

This is the most difficult blog to write. I am a complex individaul. I ride between the thin line of friend and @$$hole. Neither of us will be here forever. Death has hit me a couple times this year. I would hate that I never tell my folks/peeps how I feel.

To all the ladies that have been in my life I thank you for helping me to be the man I am today, regardless of what sent us different directions.

I love all my REAL friends. They know who they are. They better know who they are. I make it obvious. :-)

THIS SHOULD BE MY LAST PERSONAL BLOG!! Back to the regularly schedule programming.